Recently, I've been feeling the urge to re-invent myself. I feel like the last couple of years, I lost my identity in the sea of life's demands. Now, it's time to embark on the journey of finding what I had lost. I always thought I had everything figured out but I lost it at some point. I know the point at which I took that leap and now, I'm ready to climb back up. I promised myself that I would change a couple of things before I hit the big three-0! And now I've only got 5 years left. I need to get a move on it if I'm ever going to achieve my dreams.
I have lived in my little box for far too long. It's about time I ventured into the deep and discovered myself. The first time I ever asked myself this question was when I was 7. I started reading then. Not just storybooks but adult level books. I read just about anything I could get my hands on at the time. I was so jealous of the lives the characters in the books were living. All the adventures they got to have. I spent the better part of my childhood living in fantasy land. I went from one bubble to another. I took on the personality of character after character. So much so, that I finally forgot who I was. Now I ask myself everyday, “WHO AM I?”
The answer to that question has eluded me for 18 years! I try and I try and I find, that I have hidden my true identity underneath layers of years fashioning myself after make believe characters in books. Have I lived a sheltered life? Yes! Have I never gone outside the boundaries of the aforementioned life? A couple of times. Am I still hungry for more of life? ALWAYS!!! I want to burst out of my box. Leaving the shelter of my box in the past had been like raising a child and never giving him candy and all of a sudden you leave him alone in a candy shop. You best believe that child will be making some pretty bad choices (which I did...a lot).
I tried to take a temperament test a couple of nights ago and for the last 5 years, every time I take the test I get a different blend. The only thing that has been constant has been the melancholy. So, I've decided that it must be my primary temperament. I also know my primary and secondary love languages (thanks again to books). And I know, because of the Bible, what God says of me. I have a starting point. I just don't know where to go from there. I need more information to figure out who I am. And I need to just jump of the cliff already (figuratively speaking of course)!
I finally came up with the perfect plan. I need a bucket list. Or maybe a 'List of things Adupeola must do before she's 30'. There are a lot of things I've never done and I should probably do before I'm too old and I regret it (or it becomes weird if I do it...because then I'm ancient and people are wondering what's wrong with me). I haven't come up with the list yet but you can be certain that when I do, you, my dear readers, would be the first to know!
I will start the journey on my blog but it will continue on another platform or run concurrently on both. I don't know...I haven't figured out all the details yet. But I will!
Have a wonderful week ahead!
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