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...It Doesn't Hit The Same Spot Twice!

Remember my love interest from When Love Strikes... What are the odds I would run into him again? It's been 4 years. He was the absolute best. He could do no wrong. Why did I leave him? I was emotionally immature and wasn't ready for the kind of love he was peddling. I just woke up one day and decided I had enough of one man putting me first, pandering to me, singing me to sleep, caring for me, etc. I decided I was better off with jerks. I deserve everything I got after him and then some.
He was good for my ego and he made me feel like a queen. I still think of him when I listen to John Legend's All of Me. I always wondered what would have happened if I wasn't bent on self-sabotaging. He fought for me but I wasn't willing to be won! Who would think I would love someone that much and still walk out of a relationship with him because I was bored?
You have no idea how glad I am that God gives second chances. It's one of the reasons I'm not a bitter woman. Mos…

Finding Adupeola (No more flaking...I promise)

I know I haven't written in a long while, my sincere apologies. I was busy finding myself. I was one of those people that always laughed at people who said stuff like that. What exactly does “finding yourself” mean? How did you lose yourself? Can you lose yourself? I don't think I've been myself in 10 years. We all watched Finding Nemo & Finding Dora. You agree with me that their getting lost was their fault right? Going by that theory, losing myself must have been my fault, right? It was. I let other people's opinion define me. I lived my life for them leaving nothing for myself. Selfless? Nah! I just wasn't confident enough in my own skin.
I didn't love me enough to fight for me. I adopted so many personas I forgot who I was. I forgot what I loved to eat. My favorite kind of music. My favorite pastimes. I forgot the things I used to enjoy. I forgot so much my brain literally locked stuff away. I never knew how much of myself was gone until I went for a pa…