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Bloodless Murder ( His story ) - 2

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Everything I do is for my wife. Everyone knows how much I love her. I would rather gulp down a bottle of acid than step out on her. I live to make her happy. I work so hard  so she can have whatever she wants whenever she wants it without ever having to move a finger. Lately, nothing I do makes her happy. All she does is nag and nag. She has even gone back to drinking. She knows how much I hate it when she drinks and she keeps doing it just to torture me. She wants a baby. I want a baby too. But, is it right to bring a child into this world when it's obvious the mother is an alcoholic?  If only she would get some help then we could start working on that.I know she doesn't get along with my mother anymore. What went wrong I haven't the slightest clue. When did Bose become a closed book? She never lets me know what's going through her mind these days. I wish she would just tell me what I did wrong so I can apologize and we can move on with our lives.She hardly greets me …

WHAT DO YOU THINK?

A friend of mine and a devoted reader of Just Thinking Out Loud!, advised me to include an activity and chose a particular day when I would hook people up via the blog. I told him that if I got enough positive responses by Sunday, I would make it a thing and the day would be every Tuesdays. Also, I've decided that I would love to read about the stuff going through my readers minds as well. So starting from this Saturday, I will be receiving all your stories, writeups on anything and everything. It would be published with your names and photographs (optional).Just send everything via email; ayomideodewale92@gmail.comThanks for the encouragements so far and I hope in the next month we'll take it a notch higher. Adupeola

Yoga...Yepa!!!

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Okay...this time, even I know I done did it. Three days ago, I decided to spice up my workout routine a little. You know, add some diversity to it. Guess what I tried...yoga! Jeez, I always assumed it was easy. And typical me just downloaded an app showing me what to do...I almost died. Turns out, I'm not as flexible as I used to be. I probably would have done better with an expert showing me the ropes. I'm just so darn glad I didn't break anything or twist myself up in a knot.I swear, I had no idea losing the weight I gained in my two years of emotional bingeing would be so tough. I think I've reached desperation mode. I really need the weight to come off. At the same time I'm not willing to join a gym unless I have done half the work. I need to prove to myself that I can still trust me to do what's right for me. I'm in a bind is what this is. Anyway, back to yoga...despite the aches in every part of my body and my compulsory drop into oblivion for 2 hours…

Bloodless Murder ( Her Story)

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This isn't how things were supposed to be. What ever happened to the man she fell in love with? Whatever happened to the man she married? Why has love gone down the drain? Why doesn't he look at her anymore? Why won't he touch her? Why is he never home? Why? Why? Why? The questions keep ringing loud in her head, yet there's no one to provide her with definite answers. Bose married John straight out of the university. He was her one true love and she liked to believe that she was his as well. They have been married for the past 7 years and yet they were still childless.  It's not that Bose didn't want a child, she did! But at the beginning of their marriage she had so much to do and felt having a child at that moment would be stressful and so they decided to wait on it for 2 years.Somehow, 2 years increased to 7. Every time she brought up the issue of making a baby, John's only reply was, "in good time. We'll have a baby when the time is right."…

Miss Wrong

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Miss Wrong exists too. I do not dispute that fact.  A replica of something exists because there is an original. Remember that we are in the era of what a man can do, a woman can do better. These things are a sort of chain reaction. You hurt me I hurt you. Only thing is that most times we hurt an innocent because of a past offender.This is a post for the men. Hopefully this will give you the sort of vindication you think you need. Personally, I do not think you need one seeing as you started it. But, what I think does not really matter. What matters is the right thing. I will just point out what you should look out for in Miss Wrong. You are men and as such expected to be smarter (that's a misconception). Ever heard the saying, "okunrin loni iro, obinrin loni ete"? Meaning (paraphrased), "men lie, women play tricks and scheme." Say it's because I'm female, but keep in mind that even I cannot claim that I have mastered the art of femininity. I have always…

Letter To My Unborn Son

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Dear Son,
If you are reading this letter, today is your 18th birthday and mummy is married (i.e you have a present father). I am so glad I got married and your father and I were both able to give you an ideal family life (*fingers crossed* I really hope we didn't do anything to screw up your childhood). Anyways, I'm sure you love us regardless and you can be sure we love you too. Now, I'm sure that I am right across the table from you as you're reading this as I do not plan on dying until I meet your grandchildren.  Do something for me? Look up from this letter and smile right at me. Thanks baby! You see, as at the time of writing this letter, not only was mummy single, she didnt envision herself ever getting married. Kinda freaks me out that I am referring to myself as mummy. I just want you to know that although I never could dream up your daddy, I always had a clear picture of you. I am so glad that you turned out to be all that and so much more. You might have a si…

What Do You Want To Be Remembered For?

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This question cannot just be answered carelessly. After you're gone, what you're remembered for determines if you become a memory or a legend. I've finally understood that you don't have to be a legend to the world.  It's enough to be a legend to the small group of people that know you and people that just crossed your path.This question calls for a personal answer. You can only ever answer for yourself. What a man is remembered for is the inheritance he leaves behind. Inheritance in this sense doesn't just refer to material and monetary properties. It also doesn't mean something the next generation can just adapt. It's something that when a particular set of people think about it, your name comes to mind and they wish you well even though you're off in the great beyond.I always heard my grandfather say something. He always said, "wherever any of my seed goes, they will meet with helpers because I have already sown the seed." I never got i…

Black Women Rock!!! Wow....

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(I did not write this. Saw it and had to post it here)A White Woman’s opinion on Black WomenA white woman gives her “opinion” on why Black men prefer white women over Black. An educated black man responds to her comments! This is up lifting,remember we are ROYALTY!just had to post this..It seems that an article was written to Sister 2 Sister magazine by a Caucasian woman who requested a response from black men. I’m so glad she got what she asked for (and more) !!!Dear Jamie: I’m sorry but I would like to challenge some of your Black male readers. I am a White female who is engaged to a Black male-good-looking, educated and loving. I just don’t understand a lot of Black female’s attitudes about our relationship. My man decided he wanted me because the pickings amongst Black women were slim to none. As he said they were either too fat, too loud, too mean, too argumentative, too needy, too materialistic or carrying too much excess baggage. Before I became engaged, whenever I went out I w…

What About God?

Don't get me wrong. I'm not saying God cannot fight His own battles, I'm just saying why take His love, His grace, His mercy, why take all of these for granted? Every time I take in what is going on around me I can't help but come to the conclusion that, "it is by His grace that we are not consumed." It wouldn't take God long to destroy the world. The only reason that I think He hasn't is because He swore by Himself to Noah that He would never destroy the world again (Genesis 8:21-22). God values His word even more than His name (Numbers 23:19). That is why the earth and her inhabitants still remain. I am not a pastor. I am not even overly spiritual. There is one thing I'm certain about though and that is the fact that I love and fear God. I love Him because He loved me first (1 John 4:19). I love Him because His grace abounds unto me. I fear Him, not because I'm scared of Him, but because I am awestruck at His majesty. Why then do we continue…

When Love Strikes...

"My head's under water,
But I'm breathing fine.
You're crazy and I'm outta my mind."Where do I begin? You always muddle up my thoughts. When I want to talk, you leave me speechless and when I want to write, I come up blank. I cannot stop pinching myself to see if it's all a dream. If it is, please don't wake me up. The first time reality trumps fantasy. How we met. How we became friends. How we started a relationship.  I have no doubt in my mind that God was involved. You are the last thing I expected from Him but I guess He saw something I didn't. I never thought I was missing anything but since I met you I've realized I was missing a lot of things."Cuz all of me, loves all of you.
Loves your curves and all your edges.
All your perfect imperfections."You're not perfect but you are so close. Who is the ignorant person that said African men cannot be romantic? That person obviously never met you. All the little things you do th…

Why does this keep happening?

It literally offends me to see young people die off. It never makes sense to me. I know death is inevitable but,  in my mind, the only people allowed to die are over 100. Why is it that the majority of the losses today are in their 20s, 30s and early 40s. I assumed these ages were what we referred to as the 'prime of our lives'. Whenever I get news of an untimely death, I already know that I'm losing my sleep that night. I just can't comprehend why people that are called leaders of tomorrow are dying today. Is something trying to kill the youths all off? I know I can never begin to understand the pain and the hurt that their families will be suddenly pushed into. I just keep thinking I'm not related to these people and it hurts me this much, it saddens my spirit and I even lose my sleep over it. If I can feel so bad then I reckon their families must be going through hell.When I was younger, I wanted to grow up and be a doctor. Why? Because they make people better a…

OluwaSolapeFunmi!!!

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Yaaay! She's two today. My sweet little angel. My favorite cousin.  I love her so much.  I remember watching you have many firsts, your first tooth, your first steps, your first word. I love that if I sing a song to you 6 times by the 7th time you would be singing it right along with me. The first time you said my name I was ecstatic. I love that you always run towards me everytime you see me. I love that you trust me so very much enough to just follow me when I lead. The first time you hugged me and said, "I love you". I felt like you probably didn't know the meaning but at the same time that you genuinely loved me.It has been awesome watching you grow. Many more years in Jesus name. God bless you for me!Sweetheart, the good Lord will continue to keep you and protect you. You will grow up to make your parents and yourself proud. You will scale new heights everyday. You will grow to be a woman of exploits.You will be favored above others. No evil shall come near you …

Why Women Hardly Get Along With Other Women

This issue really bothers me. Why do women not get along? The few that do are so tight, to get in their clique is like going to the war front. The bitchiness women display to each other on a daily basis is nothing to write home about. If we cannot even stand by each other, if we cannot tolerate and accept each other, how do we expect men to do that?Why is it easier to buy stuff from a man than it is from a woman? Why is it tougher when the person in charge is female and not male? Why is it that women go the extra mile to be mean to women like themselves?  I have never gotten along well with other women and to this day, I can boldly say I have one female friend. The rest are just collegues and companions. This one female friend,  is one that I feel I can be open with. The rest, I tread on eggshells with.I've had so many awful encounters with women. I've had a female cashier be rude to me. I've had a sales girl be impolite to me. The fact is, I'm not the world's most…

Hope??!!

The English dictionary defines hope as, "the belief or expectation that something wished for can still happen." The Good Book summarizes hope as, "the virtuous desire for future good." Yes, hope is definitely both of these and yet so much more. I believe that hope is more practical than abstract. I see hope every day. I see it every where. Seeing it has given me my own definition of hope.Hope is what makes me plan for tomorrow, today. Hope is what makes a baby you throw up laugh instead of cry because it believes you will catch it. Hope is what makes a single woman look her best because she knows one day her man is coming to sweep her off her feet.Hope is what makes a barren wife choose names for her unborn kids because tomorrow might be the day she takes in. Hope is what makes people accept the rain because they know the sun is on its way. Hope is what makes a baby bird hop out of its nest and fly instead of fall. Hope is what makes parents let go of their childre…

Why Women Do Not Need Men In The 21st Century

There are so many reasons why women can choose to do without men in this era. There are so many replacements out there for men. The need to have a man in her life no longer trumps every other thing in a woman's mind (ofcourse there are always exceptions to one rule). Women no longer need men to make them happy. Turns out they can do that all by themselves now.Reasons Why Women No Longer Need Men.1. Women earn their own money - After the liberation era, women can now work wherever and do whatever job they want. The slogan, ' what a man can do, a woman can do better' is no joke. Not only do women have the ability to earn good money, sometimes they earn more than the men in their lives (not that this is a problem). It just means that the necessity of a man for the sole purpose of provision is now eradicated.2. Women can protect themselves - Gone are those days when a woman needed a man by her side to give her a sense of safety. Nowadays, not only can they defend themselves, t…

As I lay me down to sleep...

I do almost all my thinking in bed. The moment my head hits the pillow, it all comes rushing in. Not only do I find myself thinking more these days. I also admitted to myself recently that there was nothing I could do to quiet the voices in my head. I always kept a diary. I've outgrown it and in trying to keep up with the times, I've decided my blog would be my new diary. I understand that not everybody likes me all that much but I've given up on caring a long time ago. So many things going on around me and within me. My way out as always been writing. I need a way out. I could always write myself into fantasy land. A land where everything happens the way I want it to. A world where I always get an happy ending (no pun intended). In bed, I wonder about the future. Nobody ever knows what it holds. We just keep hoping for the best. There's no guarantee that every thing works out or falls apart. Hope is a beautiful thing. Without it, many die. Without it, many give up too…